Been away for awhile, lot's has happened, that I haven't taken the time to sit and be still and to listen. I began to pray again, and tonight I was reminded how prayer is about listening, in silence. Since the vacation I took I have not had very much silence in my life. I am almost in love with turmoil. It keeps me from my life, from being there, from being here actually. I had forgotten how to love which first requires being here when you try to love someone, and be loved.
I have bad habits. When I get up I turn the radio on, I fuddle around until it is time to leave. Then I work thinking about home, and when I am home I think about work, or school. My habits never leave me where I am. They always leave my thoughts someplace else. When I realize this I miss those I love.

By chance a friend of a friend, had rescued a dog. I don't have time for a dog, there are concerns, when will I feed him, when will I take care of this or that, I have too much to do already, I have work and school and time with my son, I am doing so much I can't stop to romp with a dog.
I have a dog now and my son calls to see how he is doing, and we monkey-farted around this afternoon, me and the dog. It was very green and sunny outside, I hadn't noticed lately. He slobbers when he drinks, he is always happy to see me. I needed this dog. Sometimes the right things happen at the right time, and it can be a little freaky when it does. The best thing to do is just let it happen. My life can be great if I would just remember to get out of the way